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“the neighbor’s house smelled
like the ocean when i walked past,” you say.
“it’s a sign that i’m drowning.”

“i stepped in two patches of fresh dirt.
it’s a sign that they’ll be digging my grave.”

“i saw the boy i’d lost my virginity to today.
it’s a sign that i’m going to cheat on you.”

“you wake me up with this shit,” he says in annoyance.
“is that a sign i should break up with you?”

“no,” you say, not looking at him, fighting
to keep smiling. “it means -”

he goes back to bed.

he thinks you don’t get it,
but you do.

you do.

--

he teaches you about chemistry,
about physics and the stars.

he teaches you that the universe is finite,
but constantly expanding;
he takes you hand to his chest, and says
“like my feelings for you.”

used to be, you thought he was your gravity
because you were so drawn to him
but gravity’s only a theory.

you’re just hopelessly stuck in his orbit now.

covalent bonds share pairs of electrons.
with him, you share absolutely nothing.
maybe once.

but now you’re two dying stars.
now, you’re burning out.

--

“i’m considering writing you into a book
where we both died.
wouldn’t it be easier if we died right now?”

“how would it be easier?”

“we would die thinking we still love each other.
we wouldn’t have to face that it’s not true.”

"you wouldn't," he says. "you mean you."

after a minute, you wipe your eyes. “yes.”
“i mean me.”

--

“i’m not religious,” you say one day,
“but i believe in hell.”

“did you record my show?”

“hell for me is a little different.
my version is meeting a man after you.
he asks me out, and i tell him no
because you happened to me.”

he stands. “okay. i think i should go.”

of course he doesn’t.
and the next day, you go out. you hold hands.

hands connect you, but only on a physical level.
it’s small. it’s nothing.
hands can’t hold the pieces of you together.

you suppose, in the future, you two will need
this steady reference point
against which to measure all the catastrophic motions
your bodies will take
when you finally
fall apart.

--

you teach him about literature,
bukowski and nabokov.

you teach him that reading is medicine
because the biggest risk is a paper cut.

he is a poem, and he is free verse.
his stanzas are exhilaratingly unpredictable,
the repetition of “i love you, i love you, i love you”
the only steady thing in your ear.

you were his favorite book but there’s a cost
because he’s broken your spine.

he’s dogeared your pages, the parts of you he liked,
and left a permanent dent in you.

you keep writing. you write a house. you write yourself
and him in it, with a picket fence and two dogs.
you can’t write him a new soul, but you try.

the law of the conservation of energy states
that no matter can be created or destroyed.

that necklace he made for you,
it could be made out of saturn’s rings,
or stardust, millions of years old.

and his love for you –
it’s still out there, somewhere.
It's safe to say that I'm in love with deep space.
Physics is poetry if you know where to look.

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italianstyle Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful poem! It's wonderful you can experience the beauty of both physics and poetry. :)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner May 3, 2014   Writer
Thank you. This is definitely one of my favorites for that very reason. 
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Prescribed-Madness Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I cannot express my love for your writing enough - it pulls me through my darkest moments and helps me feel a little less alone as I see that I'm not the only one who feels, says and wonders these things.

Thank you.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013   Writer
I'm so glad to help. :love: You're most welcome.
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Leongeds Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I really love this, I can relate. It gave me comfort, thank you.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013   Writer
You're most welcome. :love:
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914four Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Just... awesome.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2013   Writer
Thank you!
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crimsonsleeves Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2013
not at all for a lack of respect when using profanity when i say this...
but, fuck, this is amazing, could seriously be one of the best things i've read in a long while. 

yeah, getting a Favourite as well. good day now.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013   Writer
It's alright I swear all the time, so it doesn't bother me at all.
And thank you. :love:
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PatternVSUser Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have nothing clever to say about this. Just flatout beautiful. It also has the same advice I give to female friends whenever they broke up with a boyfriend.

"he teaches you that the universe is finite,
but constantly expanding;
he takes you hand to his chest, and says
“like my feelings for you.”"

My favorite paragraph
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2013   Writer
Thank you. :heart: This was actually an experimental piece. I'm actually pretty pleased with the result.
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kittielarue Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013   Writer
<3 I love love love this!
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013   Writer
Thank you!
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
I am dying. Every day, with every breath I draw, I am closer to the end of my life. For we are born with a finite number of breaths, and each one I take edges the sunlight that is my life toward the inevitable dusk, thus I chose to live each day to the fullest and love with all my heart so when I go I know I'm leaving nothing undone.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013   Writer
Reminds me of a favorite poem.

He said: “I am dying.”
I said: “But aren’t all of us dying."
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svenspade09 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013
that's a great one to
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anila73 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
why
is this so beautiful.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013   Writer
Not sure, to be honest. ^^; Glad you think so, though.
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ZXonfor Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
I really liked this piece, especially the book metaphor :)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013   Writer
Thank you. :heart:
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ZXonfor Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013
No problem x 

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anndilek Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't dare saying anything less then '................' Coz i got totally speechless. I wonder how the hell you always find the way of telling it so deep going, it touches my heart pretty often when i read your poems. Question is if it is right to admire ability of writing about topics like these or if it looks silly to love poem of somebody's misery (generally). In every case... Awesome!
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013   Writer
Thank you! :happybounce:
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anndilek Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Most welcome!!!
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SurrealArts Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm not sure if I like this one or Dichotomy better.
They're both just so so good.
I love how it was in second person, how he compared things to the stars; the second section was so cool.
And the line, "you can’t write him a new soul, but you try."
God, that gave me chills, and when I read anything I usually dont get chills unless its something really awesome like Stephen King or Salman Rushdie.
Words cannot describe how much I love this, nicely done :)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
:blush: That's so sweet, thank you!
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SurrealArts Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your welcome :D
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
Also, I personally like this better than dichotomy.
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SurrealArts Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That makes sense.  I can't tell which one I like better but they're both amazing :)

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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
:heart: Once again, you have my thanks.
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SurrealArts Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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akkajess Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Student Writer
Hi!
Your amazing work has been featured here: akkajess.deviantart.com/journa…
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
:iconepiclaplz: Thank you so much!
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Vivacia18 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013
You have no idea how perfectly this describes my parents; a lovely piece all on it's own, made all the more poignant for me due to how close to home the words are. Thank you for creating and sharing:hug:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
:heart: Thank you, as well!
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Ra-Tukt Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013
It feels real.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
Thank you. <3
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Dr-Fig Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013   General Artist
Very interesting and very beautiful. I like the way it's written and the way you use the imagery. Very cool.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
Thank you!
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Dr-Fig Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013   General Artist
You're welcome.
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crystallized-skies Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love your incorporation of science into this. Simply beautiful. 
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
:love: Thank you.
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crystallized-skies Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you are very welcome. (:
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WEEGEEVIRUS9001 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013
So how did you make this poem?
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
My boyfriend was talking about astrophysics, black holes, space, etc., and I was inspired. The relationship in this is fictional, but I'm always curious how physics factor into romance. <3
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WEEGEEVIRUS9001 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013
Ah. So this must be a poem on outer space. It's nice by the way.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013   Writer
Yes it is. :heart: I'm enamored by space.
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WEEGEEVIRUS9001 Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013
So you love outer space?
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lady-ribbon Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"and his love for you –
it’s still out there, somewhere."

So beautiful.
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