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1.
People will let you down.
You’ll love them, anyways.

Don’t let anyone romanticize
that.
It won’t be beautiful
when somebody breaks your heart
the first time
or the second
or the eighteenth.

Pain is not beautiful.
Maybe on paper
but not inside of you
not in numbers.

A million people
kill themselves
every year
but you’re still here,
and that's important.

You're doing something
right.



2.
My father told me
“Be selfish –
if you don’t take care of you
who will?”

I liked to think
that this is the reason
he ignored me
growing up.

(I’m sorry.
I don’t have good advice
on this one.
Because the people who let you down,
you’ll find,
are the ones promised to save you.
Are the ones promised to love you
and protect you
and I’ll tell you,
nothing quite hurts
like waking up in the morning
to the police in your doorway.
Nothing quite hurts
like being eleven
and hearing a cop say
“Poor girl had to live with a drunk;
That man should be ashamed”
and not being able
to disagree.)



3.
Getting over it hurts the most.
You’ll think you have
then, deep into the night,
you’ll remember
and the tears will come
faster than you can fight them.

Getting over it hurts
because you can’t.

(If you have, tell me how.


Please.)



4.
There will be a time
you’ll reach out for a friend
or a lover
or a parent
or anyone at all
and your hand will touch
empty space.

They’re not dead,
just gone.

You’ll have pushed them away.



5.
Often, I’ve found there’s no sadder story
than the one a stranger tells.

You’ll find yourself feeling sorry
for a man on a subway
at three AM
with two kids
and nowhere to go,

or the girl with no shoes
and a dirty face
her chin on her knees
and her eyes cast away
because she’s too afraid
to even make
eye contact.

You’ll find yourself
feeling sorry
for someone long gone;
you may hear how Vincent Van Gogh
once ate yellow paint
because he thought it would get
the happiness
inside of him.

And something about it
will strike you as the saddest story
you’ve ever heard
because he wasn’t crazy,
he just wanted to be loved.

(And you can’t say
that you don’t feel the same.)

You may find yourself in tears
you may find your heart heavy
(and it’s okay)
for somebody
you never knew.



6.
Somebody will tell you:
“A fifteen year old girl killed herself
because of cyberbullying.”

Somebody will tell you:
“There are only 3,000 tigers
left on Earth.”

Somebody will tell you:
“A white cop raped six black women
and got away with it.”

Never mind that they posted her address
online, and called her family after,
saying that she deserved to die.

Never mind that there were
100,000 tigers in the wild
one hundred years ago.

Never mind that one woman
tried fighting back
and they arrested her
for assaulting a police officer.

You will say, with a sigh:
“I’m used to it.”

And the saddest part of all is,
eventually,
you will be.



7.
Understand,
at some point,
your ex will call you annoying.

At some point,
somebody will call you weird
somebody will look at you
and their nose will wrinkle
and they’ll say “Wow.
What a freak.”

Don’t smile and
please,
don’t say “Thank you.”

The world isn’t cruel,
it’s the people in it,
and you’re better than that.

Scream at them,
get angry;

Let them know
that you love yourself enough
to fight back.



8.
You’ll learn that
there’s nothing worse
than the tears in a child’s eyes
the first time they’re yelled at
because it has to happen
but it can't,
not to a kid.

Maybe you’ll see it.
Maybe you’ll feel yourself
extending an arm
reaching
but it’s too late.

The innocence
is already gone
forever.
You’ll be reaching for something
that is no longer there.



9.
Somebody close to you
will die.
They’ll die far away
by themselves
and it will be awful.

After, a friend will say,
“It’s so terrible
that they had to die alone.”

And you'll agree,

and I’m sorry,
but we all die alone.
Advice, from me to you. For the hard days.
Please, don't forget that I will always love every single one of you.
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inkedpaper Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can't help but always coming back to this poem -
thanks for this soothing piece, Katie
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WitchofTales Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
All of your poems are making me tear up, but only because your messages are so powerful, meaningful, and honest! I'm sorry I don't have any better words than these, but your work is honestly very, very, very beautiful. 
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014   Writer
Thank you! This is definitely one of my favorites. 
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Streamstripe Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much. Words can't describe how much you've helped me. No-one's here for me, hasn't been for a long time and now that I found your poems I feel like I'm not alone and will get through this. Thank you so much.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014   Writer
You're most welcome. <3
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SigmaDragonheart Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is... wow... no words for it. Beautiful words that reveal a sad truth... Still, I really enjoyed reading this. Thank you very much for writing this.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013   Writer
It was my pleasure. :heart:
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youtwitface Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013
oh, man, this almost made me cry but I have no words for this other than "beautiful" and "true." Thank you for writing this; I really needed it today. :')
~LJ
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013   Writer
Not a problem! Glad to be of help. :heart:
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bwall83 Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"Often, I’ve found there’s no sadder story
than the one a stranger tells."

Best line of anything I have read of yours so far and you write wonderfully!

Keep it up.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013   Writer
Thanks, I will! :D
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Lawlessness45 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Let them know
that you love yourself enough
to fight back.

 Brilliant Line. One I think I shall post on my quotes wall above my bed. To remind me I'm worth fighting for.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013   Writer
:heart: You most certainly are, I can promise you that.
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Creyn Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Student Digital Artist
This is so true...T_T All of it.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013   Writer
I'd give anything, for it not to be. ._.
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Creyn Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Same...
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ThatSparklyStalker Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013
you somehow speak out to the quiet pain every reader suppresses without making the whole thing all "doom and gloom". This was such..such a delicate piece. Thank you for this. I have no idea who you are but this piece alone makes me want to say I love you. Thank you. 
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013   Writer
Wow.
I need to be honest, that's one of the nicest reviews I've ever gotten. One of my biggest fears when I write is that I'll oversell or heavy-hand details, symbolism, messages, etc. I'm so happy to hear that, in this case at least, I didn't. That means so much.

I don't know you, either, but I love you, too. And you're most welcome. :heart:
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ThatSparklyStalker Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013
WE SHALL BE MARRIED IN THE MORNING Love
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avalanchepark Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013
the inner despair we keep in the closet until some piece of news opens the door and makes us look once again

aside from the great writing the refrain of the survivor that runs through this turns your experience into a reassurance of a sort

we all die alone - sadder when we live alone
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WitheredPages Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

Wow. Just... wow.

I really really REALLY love this one!!! :wow:

 

All of your poems are so amazing, i can't wait till i have time to read through more of your gallery.

 

Of all the poems of yours i've read so far, i think this is my favorite, because i feel the same about most things you wrote.

 

I especially liked the part talking about your dad, which is probably due to the fact that my dad... well, isn't exactly a... nice person? I dunno. XP

 

But, overally, i really love this one its beautiful and the wording is great and it flows nicely and i could ramble on about how amazing it is fore the rest of the day but i'll stop talking now. XD

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Ssevora Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh lawdy I love this one~

Makes me think, y'know? That's all I can say without jumping into a paragraph about my life xD (got a lot of problems from bad genetics)

Favorite~
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013   Writer
Thank you! :heart:
And oh man, believe me, I know all about bad genetics. My dad told me when I was little that "insanity" runs in his family. And he was not friggin' kidding.
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Bloody-Bandage Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
... wow... that's all I can say is wow...  
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013   Writer
Hopefully it's a good wow. :heart:
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Bloody-Bandage Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It's the in aww wow I love it! :iconloveitplz:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013   Writer
:blush: Aww, thank you!
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Bloody-Bandage Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You're welcome you really are a great writer I want to favorite all your writings but that would make me look like a super fan girl lol 
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013   Writer
I don't mind mass-favoritings (is that a word? ...it is now) Really. I love support from the writing community. :heart:
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Bloody-Bandage Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I'll favorite all my very favorites then...
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Skisicsmalone Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
I just found your writing (through a complaint-isn't the world funny?), and I love it. I really do. The part about Van Gogh, really got me, because I do, I do feel for him. Have you ever heard the song "Vincent" by Don McLean? It's a beautiful and sad song that your poem reminded me of. Anyway, I love this. :)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013   Writer
I haven't, actually! I'll definitely check it out. :heart: And thank you very much.
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Skisicsmalone Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
You're welcome! :)
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CeloTheImpossible Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
you're writing is so good o.o
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013   Writer
Thank you!
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CeloTheImpossible Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
you're very welcome :D
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CeloTheImpossible Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
*your
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That was good. Hard, but a lot of truths are hard. 3 is the one I'm certainly familiar with; it never really stops hurting, and you put those emotions into words so well. Rock on, girl.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013   Writer
Thank you! :huggle:
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TheInvisble Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Is it sad that I'm already used to it, is it sadder that I'm used to being used to it? 

I really really liked the part where you said:

"Don’t smile and
please,
don’t say “Thank you.”

The world isn’t cruel,
it’s the people in it,
and you’re better than that.

Scream at them,
get angry;

Let them know
that you love yourself enough
to fight back."

It was just so enlightening, I never thought about it that way.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013   Writer
Believe me, I think it's more of a defense mechanism. It's easier to be indifferent than to be engrossed in this constant state of sadness.

And I've sort of always thought that way, even when I was younger. I never thought accepting this nasty labels people give you was a sign of strength, more a sign of weakness. A sign of low self-esteem, or acceptance.
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sophiarosee Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013
this is really, truly, honestly perfect in every which way!
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013   Writer
:blush: Thank you so much!!
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Alexa91198 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
God...that was amazing 

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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2013   Writer
Thank you! :heart:
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RunsWithBooks Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013
Wow. This was absolutely fantastic. I mean... really. I shared it on Facebook and everything and I don't think I have ever done that with a poem before. Instant favorite (and I'm a new 'watcher'). 

“Poor girl had to live with a drunk;
That man should be ashamed”
and not being able
to disagree.)

My only comment is here, that because you use a semi-colon, the 't' in 'that' should be lowercase instead of capital. (Sorry, I'm an editor with a penchant for details.)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013   Writer
Thank you, for both the favorite and the watch.

And I never noticed that to be honest. I'll edit it. :)
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JessicaTruesong Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Amazing...and very wise words
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013   Writer
Thank you. :heart:
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Kellorist Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Interface Designer
I love you too <3
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