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      I'd like to count the number of times you fucked me over, but I only have ten fingers and toes.



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    I never mentioned this but I really should have. Because it was so hard that you were blowing me off, especially after the third/fourth/fifth/fourteenth time. Or in September, when your eyes could look everywhere but mine – when I finally stopped telling you, because I knew you weren't listening. Oh, and you killing yourself last April. There's that. (Your note said: "Tell Scarlett I'm sorry." And oh God, Charlie, please believe me, I tried so hard to make it right, I did.)



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    Fourteen days, two hours, and fifty-nine minutes: how long it took for us to fall in love. Overnight: how long it took for you to fall out of it. You loved me like a bomb loves a crowd. Like the boys mothers warn their little girls about, except you had softer hands and nicer eyes, so I never thought you could take everything when you left.



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    You wouldn't have come to me in January if our parents weren't such good friends; but they were, and they also didn't know, so you finally consoled me per their request. "Come on, Scarlett. Everybody's really worried about you." "But you're not." You tried to set your jaw, because you only had twenty-eight teeth and sometimes they didn't sit right. "…Sure." "Sure," I mocked, and slammed the door in your face. I shut you out, Charlie. Just like you did to me.



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    I didn't cry when you finally walked away. By then, I was already so used to pain that I just closed my eyes, counted down from ten, and let you go.



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    The funny thing is, they were asking me the same questions I was asking myself. But whatever happened to "I never wanted to hurt you", whatever happened to every promise you couldn't keep, I didn't know. "They're dead," I finally told my brother, after the third week. And his face, it just broke. He wanted so hard to understand and so did I. Thus I never told him that your promises didn't die with you; they just didn't exist.



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    On exactly six different occasions, I would argue, "But you said…" Even if you'd said so much – even if none of it was ever true and they were just words. "I can't," was the only thing you were saying, after a while. Exactly once, I asked you, to please tell me, please? But you just kept falling back, and back, each step I took – seven – until there were tears in my eyes and absolutely nothing in yours. "Please," I whispered, one last time. And it wasn't a question. I already knew the answer.



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    I like butter on both sides of toast, the smell of new books, and learning about model cars. And I never thought I'd meet somebody who not only knew how to put every Revell kit together, but who also knew how to hide tears in your pockets, and how to stop counting because life was too short for that. You taught me how to enjoy the moment while it lasted, because every good thing had to come to an end, even ours. Especially ours.



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      P.S. I'm sorry, too.
because I can't fall that hard ever again.

The last time I fell down, it was a hardwood floor, and both of my knees turned red, then purple, then me-coloured.

I wish it was that easy: red, then purple, then normal. Rinse and repeat.
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TheInvisble Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wait I'm confused. I though your name was Katie.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013   Writer
It is.
I have this bad habit of naming my characters after people I know (I'm not terribly creative.)
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TheInvisble Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wait so your ex Charlie didn't kill himself? And that wasn't about you too?
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013   Writer
No. He's alive and well; we made amends and are actually good friends now.
This is completely fictional. It says so in the category line:
"Literature / Prose / Fiction / General Fiction / Short Stories"
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TheInvisble Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
OH yeah! Okay. Thanks. I just got worried for a sec. I get way to involved in other peoples lives. Sorry.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013   Writer
It's alright. I appreciate your concern; if he'd killed himself, I definitely wouldn't be writing about him.
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Loveyouharder Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
"Come on, Scarlett. Everybody's really worried about you."
"But you're not."
That made me burst into tears. Like, immediately. I just feel how you described feeling and wow. That is an amazing talent.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012   Writer
Making people cry is a strange talent to have.
But honestly, I'm just glad to know I'm not alone on feeling this way. Thank you. :heart:
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SugapieIsSoFly Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2012  Student Filmographer
Wow, the line "You loved me like a bomb loves a crowd." really struck home for me, very vivid and intense. You always have such a good way with forming powerful phrases.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2012   Writer
Well I've been practicing. :D But yeah, that was probably one of, if not my favourite line in the whole thing.
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lalaith913 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012   Writer
Beautiful and sad ♥ thanks for the sharing.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012   Writer
You're most welcome. And thank you for reading.
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psychoticmonkey33 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012
you are the most amazing writer. this is beautiful, you take your emotions and make them beautiful... i almost don't know how to react to this...
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012   Writer
You always give me too much credit, Veer. <3 But thank you so much; this was one of the most personal things I've written, actually.
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psychoticmonkey33 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012
posh, you're too humble.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012   Writer
I get that a lot. But I can't be arrogant, I just caaan't. D:
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psychoticmonkey33 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2012
that is actually a VERY good thing. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012   Writer
Yyyyay!!! :la::la:
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012
(Your note said: "Tell Scarlett I'm sorry." And oh God, Charlie, please believe me, I tried so hard to make it right, I did.)

That part really hit me.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012   Writer
:forgiveme: It was the most personal part of this whole piece. So you're not alone on that.
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Kymira12 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello!

I have featured your piece in my Journal, you can find it here [link] . I would greatly appreciate it if you could possibly go and support the other artists featured. Have a good day! :D

P.S if you would like me to take it off my Journal or you would like to know why I featured your piece please Note me :hug:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
Thank you! <33 And no, no I don't mind my piece being there at all. :) I'll also be sure to check out the other wonderful artists!
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Kymira12 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That's great! I'm sure they'll appreciate your support ^^
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HourglassOfLostTime Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Amazing work there. Very deep. Raw yet intricately woven into this fine piece of literature
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
Thank you, dear. :heart:
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shawtymanex42 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Dear God.

"I'd like to count the number of times you fucked me over, but I only have ten fingers and toes"

"You taught me how to enjoy the moment while it lasted, because every good thing had to come to an end, even ours. Especially ours."

Those lines, once again, the lines you write are superb, flawless, all in all, they blow me away. And even though I tell you this way too much, I enjoy and look forward to everything you submit because I know it's going to make me smile, cry and be stuck in my head for the rest of my day!. Love this dude, it's spectacular, like everything you write :heart:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
I think the beginning line was my favourite. I...I can't explain. I just really like it. And I'm glad you did, too!

I have this habit of writing one-liners in my pieces. My last English professor taught me to be concise and precise with your meaning, which is what I've been trying to perfect for a while now. I think it's working, too. :love:

Awww, that's so sweet, thank you! And here's a secret: I always look forward to your comments. <3
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shawtymanex42 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012
I thought it was really awesome, and that line being at the beginning, as soon as I read it, I was instantly intrigued!

It sure is! I like one liners myself, I think sometimes they convey so much more emotion and plot than an entire paragraph... and you always come up with terrific one liners! :love:

Awww, you're welcome! :hug:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012   Writer
I was hoping. I played it as a hook and it turned out well, I see. <3

I tend to speak in one-liners when I get depressed, rambling off the most unrelated things at the most unusual times, much to the great confusion of my brothers. So I suppose it goes with my tendency to say demonic things under my breath. ^^;

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shawtymanex42 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012
Hurr, it sure did! <3

I speak in one liners when I'm trying to be funny, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't, most of the time I just get disgusted looks from my parents :no:

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lintu47 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello :wave:
You have been featured in my weekly dA love for everyone! article.
Have a nice day :huggle:
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
Gah. :blush: All these features. Making me blush.
You're too kind. But thank you. I really, really appreciate it.
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lintu47 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
My pleasure :huggle:
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NotenSMSK Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This was really nicely written, especially coming to the end I would say the emotions were well delivered and a person could feel for you but there is one thing that bothers me.

Yo might not have intended it this way but the places where it is bold and you have specified numbers, it is a bit similar to "obsession" by :iconuntamedunwanted: . I won't say it is bad, but you might want to look at her work and then your own to see if you feel such a close resemblance as well ^^ (I featured obsession in my journal too)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
Ayyy, I did. I had a feeling you'd mention that. I actually favourited that piece right after this one, and instantly felt kinda shitty. But, truth is, I actually based it around a poem from one of my favourite authors on here, who has OCD involving counting every little thing - that and my piece Isolated Incident.

Damnit. Now I feel bad. D:
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NotenSMSK Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
haha you don't have to feel bad, it is not like you copied the whole work itself. Let me tell you what, your poem does not revolve around numbers only. Cancel the numbers and put some other detail there :D No need to feel bad ;)
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012   Writer
Okay. :3 I was just nervous for a second there. I do that a lot it seems, write something I think is brilliant, then jump on here and be like, "Oh wait, no. That's the most used idea on this site, okay."

But thank you, for pointing that out. I appreciate it regardless.
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NotenSMSK Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are welcome ^^ and everyone has their traits :D
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CaeruleanLuminosity Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You leave me breathless every time o; <3
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
I'm sorry. I mean, if you don't like being breathless.
And thank you. :heart::heart:
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CaeruleanLuminosity Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
If it's your writing that's doing the breath taking , then it's a-okay (; <3
You are so welcome ^.^
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012   Writer
I'm flattered. :heart: And I'll gladly uh, take your breath away more, I guess...? That kind of makes me sound like a witch, but oh well. :)
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are such an amazing prose writer, your thoughts... I wish I could see the inside of your head. It must be amazing if it can produce stuff like this.
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colbalt-rain Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012   Writer
You make it out to be something that is so much better than it really is. Because, the truth is, I wouldn't mind trading.

Also, thank you. :] That means a lot.
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